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It was only a few months ago that I thought to myself; I'm going to rebuild this lost foundation and make it perfect again. It was only a few months ago, that i thought life was unbearable without him. It was only a few months ago, that my closest friends lost me as a human being. Only a few months ago, that I lost myself in mid air. I thought all this talking would lead to something that was existent months before. All the thinking, all the false hope made me lose my mind and I was lost all over again.

But now, I've realised that rebuilding a foundation that has crumbled so far into the ground is almost impossible. Realised that life isn't really all that unbearable, it sure is different, and kind of difficult. I've even noticed the changes in myself, looking at my reflection and my actions from months ago, I realised that wasn't even me. I was so caught up in making things "perfect" that I forgot who I was, and who I really am. Once and for all, I have to let go of what has been causing me misery, and welcome the real happiness that I truly think I deserve. Being able to feel liberated, and to let go of all the scars, and the sadness, gives me the chance to re-obtain myself as I am. Let those in, instead of pushing them away. Live in confidence, rather then grave fear. It's sometimes the little things in life that allow you to put the bigger pictures into great perspective. No time to be held down by someone that only brought happiness once in my life. And that one time was really magical, but it's not the most important thing anymore. Right here, right now; that's the most significant.

xx Veronica