My eyes wondered to you, your arms wrapped around me for the very first time. It was this electric vibe that rushed through my body, but I completely ignored it, because I never thought anything of it at first. I spent the night crying over something that didn’t even matter. Tears that fell for no fucking reason. You wiped them away, you held me the night. I came home and I saw what a mess I’d caused, and the humiliation I felt. Sobering up, all I could really think of was “who was it that held me all night when I had traces of thrown up alcohol on me...” And it was you. Slowly I just started to feel my heart beat whenever we talked. Beating to something so new and so refreshing. I was so afraid to admit what was going on, because I was so unsure. Fearful of another loss in my life, something that was far from what I ever wanted. All the fear was there, it was definitely there, but you somehow rid me of my fears. I no longer doubted myself, nor did I ever question what was going anymore. I don’t know what kind of magic spell you casted, but I hope it never fades away. I hope this magic lives forever and ever because now that I have you, the only scary thing is, what if i lose you...
Baby, what’s going on here is something I’ve never even dared to dream of. The past has affected me so much that I never thought I’d be able to feel this way again. It’s the way you’re curious about me that makes me feel so special. The way you understand the way I operate that makes me feel cherished. How you seem to remember the little details about me that makes me feel like I’m worth something. It’s the way you compliment me and I actually start to believe it, and that makes me confident in myself. How you send me random “I love you” messages that makes me feel like I’m truly loved. The way you hug me around my waist that makes me feel secure and safe. The way you kiss me that makes me feel comfort and warm inside. The way you make me abuse my keyboard with gibberish that makes me feel like a little silly girl that has a crush.
It’s like you’ve awakened my life. And I know I’m not perfect because nothing is in this inadequate world. I can’t promise to solve all of your problems, but I promise to stick them out with you. I can’t promise to be your perfect girl, but I promise to try my best. I can’t promise to have all the answers, but I promise to search for them with you. Sometimes, things just happen, and when you happened, I decided that you’re the only one I ever want. I don’t want anything else. I say I want you to take me places, but the truth is, I’d rather spend a whole day with you sitting at the beach talking about everything and anything. I show you the beautiful houses, mansions, and sky high priced apartments, but the truth is, I’d rather live in a tiny shack, as long as I have you with me, it’s more than sufficient. I don’t live in the materialistic world, I’m not a material girl, I’m a dreamer, and I’m in love with you. And that’s all that matters to me now, and forever.
I love you Kevin, now&forever. Forever&always. Its you and me...for life. ♥
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