050710

The pain in missing you in unbelievably unbearable.

Some days I find myself wondering around mindlessly. I snap myself out of it, and realise that you are on my mind. I went for a long walk today, I walked to the park, and sat on the swings for what seemed like hours. I looked here and there, and all I saw was your face. Your eyes, staring straight back at me. When I talk to you, I'm so happy, and yet so sad at the same time. So happy that we're talking again, but sad that I feel as though my heart is jumping at something that isn't there. But I really do hope it is.

xx Veronica

020710

It's the second day of the 7th month. The year has honestly flown by me without my awareness. I sometimes look at the date and just think "Wow, where has the year gone"

I don't even remember doing anything this year. That's funny, because I remember doing everything last year. Right from January to December. This year was suppose to be great, it was suppose to bring even more happiness, even more joy and even more adventures. But these things have slowly slipped out of my life, and down a deep self-dug hole. Year 11; I wrote in my old blog "Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010!" but I'm starting to regret saying that at all. I really wanna say; please come back 2009...you were so good to me. Why did you leave...I'm begging you. 

xx Veronica