I wish I was that little 5 year old, roaming around my grandma's backyard on my new purple bike, not having a care in the world. I wish that I still believed in fairytales. That when we find a large beanstalk and climb it, a giant will be there with golden eggs and golden harp. That when I fall asleep forever, prince charming will come along on his horse, place a kiss on my lips, and we'll live happily ever after. I wish that the most painful thing I could ever experience would be a cut on my knee or bruise on my arm. I wish that saying 'i love you' to a boy, wouldn't end up in heartbreak and tears, but just a sign of mere friendship.
Everything was so much simpler back then. Instead of working out pages and pages of equations, we did addition, and subtractions which involved counting pictures of apples, or houses. Instead of having to write a thousand word essay, we only had to fill in the missing word, or do a page of find-a-word with pretty colours. Instead of having to de-construct a priceless piece of art, we could just draw a picture of our family, or our favourite thing. Instead of standing up in front of hundreds of students to present a speech with intimidating teachers marking you on your every action and word, we only had to tell 'News' holding a piece of object, once every week, showing it off and allowing others to ask questions about it.
Having friends were as easy as picking out beautiful flowers. But now, you only have a few people who you can really tell your secrets to. Chasing boys were considered cute, but now, it's just plain slutty. Loving our parents was not an option, but now disliking them is compulsory. Having belief and faith was an immense feeling, but now we don't even have time for our God. Lying would expect a smack on the bottom, but now it would be a daily ritual. Using the computer would be a confusing process, but now, its all you use to interact and do daily things.
It's funny how things change around you, subconsciously. Then when you look back, you come to realise the person you were, to the person you now are. The people you meet, the things you do, the things you say are all apart of identifying the person you will be in the future. I wonder if the people in my life right now will stay or go. Who will be there until the end, and who will eventually drift off to their own life? If those people that made a significant impact in my life and already left...will I ever get to see you again and rekindle with you? If those people who I had grudges with, will I end up being best friends with you, and those who I love right now, I'll end up hating?
When thinking about these things, it really does make you wonder. It really does give you a sense of curiosity. Being the person you are now, and the person you will be will depend on a lot of things in life. However, now is what counts. Now is what matters.
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