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"There’s nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and open a vein." - Walter Wellesley “Red” Smith

I never knew writing could take me to such extents. I believe that without writing, I have no future, I have no goal and I will gradually have no life. Growing up in the Asian society, with Vietnamese parents who don't speak much english, becoming a writer is extremely rare, and barely many Asians make it. I think that's one thing that I'm afraid of. Not the fact that people will judge me, because I've already been down that road, not by strangers either. Family. Yeah, it's pretty pathetic. Anyhow, the thing I'm terrified of is, not being able to make it as a writer, the fact that I have my mind set to the only thing I'm good at, the only talent I honestly, think I possess. Without it, I go absolutely no where.
I've been told over and over again by my brother, do something you love, but do something that will also benefit you in the future. Writing will benefit me in both money and happiness, it's also something that I love to death. I'll write...till I die.

"Live life as if you'll die tomorrow, dream as if you'll live forever"

Life at the moment for me, can be described in one simple, yet complex word; happy. I haven't been happy in a really long time. The amount of times I've cried this year is almost unbelievable, because it it takes me a really long time to cry, really cry over something that's happened to me. Over the past few weeks, the drama has been intense, horrific and at times depressing. Being able to cry for long hours on end is something I never want to experience ever again. However, on a happier note, the person I'm with right now has made me happy and smiling for the past few weeks. His smile is absolutely adorable, and makes me forget about all my worries. Talking to him for hours is the one thing I look forward to most, everyday. Ironically, we argue about the most ridiculous things every 5 minutes...literally. I guess that's what I love about him. He makes me feel on top of the world, giving into everything I say, and making sure that I'm happy every second of the day...the smile on my face...I don't want it to ever fade

xx Veronica