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im sorry. im so sorry. sorry to myself. sorry for breaking down. im so sorry. i dont know what to do anymore. i thought i had it under control. i really did. i really thought i could. im numb. i feel nothing. i feel lifeless right now. i feel alone. and cold. i feel like i need to sleep forever. i dont want to wake up and face this harsh cold world. im so scared. im scared of everything. why. why did this happen to me. why am i like this. whats wrong with me. my mind is so fucked. im out of words.